She was afraid of that feeling. She was afraid to tell even to herself that she still missed him,that he has taken a part of her with him. She was afraid that she will never be able to tell him this,the idea of life without him was a nightmare to her. She was unable to understand that the more she tried to forget him,the more he was running through her veins,making her blood thinner,taking away her strength. She started hating people,she no more liked them talking to them,his love was evacuating her of herself,of all the feelings she had about life,and all that ran in her veins was him and only him. And sudden reveries of him leave her all in shock that he’ll never cease to exist in him.